On the morning of April 20th, I went out to the paddock to feed my horses as I normally do, and found Shadow dead on the ground, Spirit standing over him. The vet reported he was taken by a snake-bite.

Two days later, dad was on his way home from the airport, and he was hit and killed by a drunk driver. How ironic, as mum was killed by a drunk driver back in 1999.

Then, as if two deaths weren’t enough, I had to get Spirit put down on the 28th, as he was simply fading away. Whoever says animals don’t have feelings, obviously has never met two horses who were inseparable. Spirit simply stopped eating and drinking, and wouldn’t leave the spot where I found Shadow dead.

I have now lost both of my parents, and my two beloved horses; everything I cared for so much.

I just feel so... empty inside. I haven’t even cried. It’s like the person I was before that day Shadow died simply packed up and left with my dad and horses.

Thus, I have come to see that I have to leave. Leave behind everything, and move far away in the hopes of picking up the shattered pieces of what once was a life, my life, and try to start over.

To do this, I have deleted everything I’ve ever posted to the internet. I’ve gotten rid of my favourites except for those on deviantART. I’ve deactivated my hotmail & Livejournal accounts, and put my fanfiction.net, fictionpress, & deviantART accounts into shutdown as they are unable to be deleted.

I have buried my horses out in the far paddock, executed my dad’s will, and organised to move overseas. I can’t stay here, in this house of memories. My dad & I moved here after mum died, to start over. I got Shadow and Spirit while in this house. So many memories. I don’t want to remember.

To anyone who may be watching my accounts, I politely ask you to delete me. I will not be coming back here for the foreseeable future, if ever.

I’ve posted this so you will know why I’ve disappeared, and to say thank you to each and everyone I’ve had contact with. You are all amazing, and I have been blessed to know you.

And I say that personally to – Balrog Roike – Carmilla DeWinter – Firecracker7 – Jounouchichan/Katsuko – SkyTarget – Sanjuno. Thank you.

I wish you all the best with your future endeavours, all I ask is that you forget about me. I am no longer the person I was before the 20th.

This is the last time I will be signing in to this account.

This is the end.

I’m going now.

Goodbye,

Arahsi (I.A.A).